Me

I am but a shadow
I drift in the wind
On the ether of this earth
I am but a notion
A wordless old saying
Which
Makes old men laugh with memory
I am but a distant thought
Made to be the concerns of
Not many
I am just a shadow
I am just a notion
I am
Me

Love Is - Carys and Shaun

Love is
Not easy
Love is often
The hardest mountain to climb
We speak of Everests
This is a Mariana Trench
Where only three people have ever physically been
Love is
A challenge
Daily causing to question
Is this the right thing?
Are they the right person?
Am I living the life I want to?
That I am meant to?
That I should?
Love is
Demanding
Formidable
Unyielding and -
Yet love is
The greatest of all prizes
It is 
All the diamonds in the multilayered technicolour multiverse
It is
Every living creature beneath the great azure sky which stretches from farthest east to greatest west
It is
Worth all the air you will ever breathe
Because love is air itself
Love comes and says
You are precious
It comes and says
You are wanted
Love tells you
You are living a good life
And no matter what you do
Where you go
Who you see
You will always be worthy
To love's other eyes
For love comes not in praise and glory
But love comes
Quiet and alone
Found in the most unusual of places
Love
Is not easy to find sometimes
Nor is it often
Wanted
But love is just and
Love is fair
Patient
Kind
And when love exists between
Two people
It can make
Miracles

Future you

My future darling
I cannot say how much I am looking forward to meeting you.
This week you started moving
I could feel your rhythm as you squirmed and kicked your way inside my belly
You are
Thoroughly already a pain
Causing discomfort, stress and agnst
Yet
I love you already
Only twenty weeks old and already
You show
The delights of life
On this day as I read the harshest laws
That Alabama placed for those who
Have a miscarriage or need an abortion beyond six weeks
I think about how lucky we are
Living in this
The most beautiful land
Though we are but fools
I am determined that this world, this country
Will be the one you deserve to be raised in
You are the apple of my eye my darling
And I delight in thinking of
The day we meet

Thirty-seven steps

I'm thirty-seven steps from the queen
And by that fact I don't mean
That I'm next in line for throne
That I would never want it at all
Instead I'll leave to her - the queen

I'm thirty-seven steps from the queen
Through marriage and genealogy you see
Someone back in my father's past
Married a German princess
and made their own line - the queen

I'm thirty-seven steps from the queen
Although it may sound obscene
We're completely different lines
And there's no way I'll ever dine
On caviar and champagne with the queen

I'm thirty-seven steps from the queen
However romantic that seems
People ask why I'm a royalist
I say, I'm not, just a nationalist
As in Scottish, because she Scottish - the queen

I'm thirty-seven steps from the queen
But I'm not going to turn green
Envy is not something I have for her life
With all the publicity, all the strife
I'd never want to be her - the queen

I'm thirty-seven steps from the queen
And I respect the elderly woman so keen
With eyes like daggers and a heart of steel
If Donald Trump was British - he'd kneel
That is what makes our queen.

I'm thirty-seven steps from the queen
She's bold, she's old, sweet and mean
Though the monarchy is a little outdated
And they get our money while their estated
I'll always respect the small woman in hats - the queen

Mother Earth

I'm in agony
My child, my dear, my bairn
I'm in agony, can't you hear my screams?
They started off small, mere tremblings, and then
Grew as the pain increased.
Sweat is breaking forth upon my crown
And it's rising in my underneath too

The natural cold chill there - it's abating my dear
As the perspiration beads like stupendous dew
My heart though still beats steadily,
and my veins flow thick as they ought
But my skin pricks
Flowing with dirt and grime
And the trillion small particles
You recklessly make from ancient creatures and then
Dispose of

The creatures who lived and still live on my surface, my dear,
The bairns, my children just like you,
Are not slowly, but quickly, dying, child
And I don't know what to do

I continue to scream in agony
I continue to try to get your attention
As you kill me with your smoke, your poison and your craft
Those things that you leave around my person, my room,
Those broken toys that ultimately I made, that you stole from my flesh to power your empires

I called out to you louder and louder through the ages, child
I made mountains tremble and seas rise
Now I'm screaming through the fire, yelling through the wind and earth
As you continue to kill
Continue to wipe out my children
Who are your children too

You're poisoning me my dearest one
My most precious and ingenious creation,
In deepest Africa I gave you life
And then you rose like a new hope
And you moved across my skin, sailing my many seas.
As the heat rose and I sweated, giving you tides, you sailed with me, taking my natural cycles of warmth and chill as wrote.

When I froze you still loved me
When I warmed again for you
You still cared
Then why is it, darling, that now I am calling for you the loudest ever
That you ignore me
And strike me, again and again
I'm in agony my dear, I'm dying
And this time, it's all your doing

For a friend

My darling
You are but an idea
A collection of cells that some do not deem life
You have barely the workings of a heart
The bonds that make bones
The membrane that forms skin
You are but a peanut
A raisin, or a pebble
That makes barely a ring when struck
Upon the waters of the universe
But you my darling
Are my world now
And I think on you daily
I think of you when I sleep, when I wake, when I eat
I think of you when I dream, when I laugh and when I cry
I think of you when I jump, when I stress and when I imagine
I think of your future
And I, my child, I am sorry
I am sorry for this world I am bringing you into
When a man sits on a throne
And holds a country to hostage
Costing lives and the wellbeing of eight hundred thousand workers
When guns blaze wild,
killing children who walk to school only to educate themselves to do better
When economists and capitalists sit and turn deaf ears to the words of sciencists
Who declare the few years we have left to save our planet
When my country is tearing itself apart with indecision over a mistake it refuses to admit it made
When trees are felled merely for the reason to grow food for animals which destroys other animals
When the millions of plastic we steal from the earth we feed back to the seas
Killing, destroying the destiny
When the one voice calling out reason
Is a young Swedish girl who's right is to this earth that we destroyed for her
That we still destroy for her
That we kill terrorise
For her future
My darling
I am sorry to bring you into this life despite the fact you will be loved
Despite the fact you are wanted
Despite the fact you will always be in my heart
And I will hold onto you
I am sorry

01/01/2019 New year

The new year
A new dawn
A new chance to
Grasp the future
We see ourselves
In fleeting glances
At the mirror
In the glass
And we forget how
Fragile we are
Yet how
Limitless we can be
A year year
A new dawn
A new time to
Expand horizons