29/06 Manipulation

Walking
Is that hard baby
Is so hard honey
Is like running
So come to me
My hun
Can't reach that far
So you come here
My baby darling
And bring it to
Me

28/06 Dissocia

Fuzzy
Blurry
Nausea rising
Can't see because
Of the tide turning
Eyes lost
In a fog
Can't see naught
But what you colour
Pink
Blue
Line up the sky
I'll sigh a while
And then wonder why
Why this
Is the way it is
Why I am the
Way I am

27/06 Let me go

Let me go then
To that land where
I have a life beyond this
And you do not know me
In fact no one knows me
Not the birds nor trees but
You will be in my mind and
I shall be in a dream

26/06 Graduating

Today I became a graduate
My life changed the permanent
Six times I choked back tears
Seven times I handled fears
As I strode to get my hood and hit
I realised that my life was shit
I have no idea, no hope
I just don't know if I can cope
But let me to you truly say
That I'm really really not okay

25/06 Pretense

Smile
Even though you
Don't feel it
Dance
Even though you
Can't step
Laugh
Even though you
Physically will be sick
Just be happy
Be happy
Why don't you be happy?
Because you're just sad
Just sad
You're just pretending.

24/06 Hun

Hun my life is yours
And I'm sorry I hurt you
But I never did know
I never did it deliberately
And so you should forgive
Never give in to despair

23/06 Dear UK

My dear UK
I must say
I'm disappointed
You voted against
The common sense
And lost all
Chance of decency
It's a shame you did not think
Did not realise
This country will now sink
That is of course
Brave heroes thus
Save the British Isles
From idle mistakes
Because we're on the brink
Of idiocracy
Where the wise men fail
To reproduce
And choose
Instead to just go
With the flow
Listen to the fear
And not truly hear
The rhythms of reality

26/06 my dear

I would like to say
My dear
That I'm right by your side
Right here
Today we'll dance together
And then be gone
Snap our tether
To this world and this life
We'll forget all matters of strife
We'll be gone
And we'll dance
Far into a trance
And forget everything
Forget everything
We'll forget everything
That was

22/06 EU Ref

Fear the tomorrow
The day of unknown
Fear the tomorrow
When our world could be overthrown

21/06 Heartbeat

Put me up to your chest
And let me feel your heart boom boom away
The Japanese
They call it doki doki
The pretend scientists
Call it the lub dub
But I call it the thump
The beat of the earth
I call it the thump
The thrumming in your life
And I don't care
How funny I look
As I lean into your chest
Your breast
Cushion boobs
Because I'm just loving this beat
The doki doki
The lubby dubby
The thump and beat
Of the planet

20/06 Lol

Like a
Like the
Like the like
Like what in
Lol
If you've like
Yolo'ed
With the rofl
In the lol'age
Like the
Like those
In the like
Lol

19/06 Room

Lone room
Dark room
Empty room
Nothing room
Void room
Silent room
Dull room
Sleep room

18/06 Good Health

To your good health
I find myself cheering
Raising a glass
To your good health
To my good health?
Nobody cares
For to your good health
That's what I'm cheering
Your good health
My leige, my king,
My boss, my president,
My superior
My head of office
My slightly senior,
My man in the slightly larger chsir

17/06 Give Up, Give In

Never give up
My friend
Never give up again
Because you'll see the end
My friend
And you'll be able to give in
No more

16/06 Kiwi

Such a silly little bird
Flightless and thought boring
Near blind, chirping loud
Rasping in the night
Drab and tiny, with crazy arms
Like a tyrannosaur
Going sniff sniff with
A sensitive beak and else
All just gorgeous
In the night,
Little omnivores, little nocturnals
Munch munch little raphite
Keep dancing your less than
Monogamous love

13/06

Forgot

15/06 name

Lots
Of people
Want my name
But I hate them
All the
Same

14/06 Street Talk

The problem was that these things
No
No no, I did
Didn't
Where are we going
Isn't that the place there
See if you want a dog like that
You should be able to handle it
Dogs pulling on him
Staffordshire
Shocking
Its not the dog
It's the owner behind the dog
Get me back

12/06 Void

Let me know
You're going to be here
All my life
Never
Let me go
And never let me be
Led astray
Oh my lover
Hold my hand and keep
Me from
Throwing myself into the void

11/06 Sleep

So broken
In this moment of
Absolute insanity
As I succumb to
The restful state
Of sleep

10/06 Having

Watching
Waiting
Holding on to something indefinable
Loving
Lusting
Desiring something undesirable
Laughing
Dancing
Twirling with someone delightful
Thinking
Conceiving
Keeping that thing believable

09/06 Hunger

Hunger for
Life
For burgers
For desire
For excitement
Hunger for
Ketchup
For victory
For adventure
For joy
Hunger for
Assassination
For kiwis
For kisses
For lust
Hunger for love
For breadcrumbs
For breakfast
For you

08/06 Losing Silence

Where are you my friend?
I've been seeking you hard
All these years
In the midst of a cathedral
I found you
At the point of no return
I found you
At the idea of death
I found you
Sneaking your way into my life
And wild times had we
Blindly going on adventures
That only the deaf will understand
The mute will rejoice in
That only the shadows can appreciate
We had good times
I had good times
But then you were gone
And no longer can I find you
For all that is
Is noise around me
And I can't find you again
Beyond this sound

07/06 Bloody

There's something fearful
Coming outside of me
As I'm crying red
Out from my underside
I'm ashamed of me
Ashamed of my femininity
As I soak these sheets
These clothes
These parts of my body
That I should never show
Just standing here
Not allowed to speak
Putting up your hand in the class
But no, not allowed to go
To use the toilet
Because obviously
You're just lazy
You can't honestly think
They'd let you go because
Of a singular time of the month
When the moon is high
Or when it is low
It's your responsibility
To hide it
Not to let it show
Its disgusting
Don't speak of it to me
Just have this time
Be blamed for your temper
Your sorrow and mood swings
For your time
Of never ending pain
And suffering
As your body rips itself out
Inside out
And restarts anew
To remind you it still works
Here, it says, you can still have a child
Have some pain with
To leave you bedridden
But at the same time
Shush
Your a wuss, disgusting
If you use it as excuse

06/06 midnight

Just into the midnight hour
When the crows come out to play
And the nightjars have their way
Cawing never in the day
Just into the midnight hour
And it's another dark night
It's possible that I just might
Have your heart in my sight
Just into the midnight hour
And I'm as tired as can be
I've been working can't you see
So hard, so long, this is me

05/06 Forgot

Forgetting
Is like wetting
The bed

04/06 Shake up

When I am awake
I find you
When you are awake
You find me
You come into my heart
And my head
And shake me up
When we're awake
We make love

03/06 Love to

Love to work
Love to play
Love to be
Love to have
Love to want
Love to desire
Love to see
Love to lust
Love to love

02/06 Interview

Sitting in a round of chairs
Hearing "would you fill out this form please?"
Thinking "you already have my fucking CV"
Hearing "oh it's double sided"
Thinking "do you think I'm an idiot and wouldn't check"
Hearing "here's a blue pen"
Thinking "I like black"
Hearing "would you like a glass of water?"
Thinking "yeah right it'll be a plastic cup"
Hearing "he'll be right with you"
Thinking "so that's another hour."
Hearing "right all of you come in"
Thinking "wait... no one said this was a group interview"
Hearing "tell me about yourself"
Thinking "I've filled it out for you. Twice"
Hearing "we're looking for engaging people"
Thinking "I need the toilet."

01/06 Half A Pound

Once upon I had a heart
Then once a time I lost it
There was a little mistake that was made
Then I broke my pelvis