moving on

Tumbling

The world started

Crumbling

And I found myself

Stumbling

Into a void

Crying

I found myself

Dying

As I kept on 

Trying

To fix things

Breathing

I began

Wheezing

As my heart became

Freezing

To the touch

Falling

I felt my fists

Balling

As you were 

Calling 

Me those names

Accusing

I felt I was

Losing 

There was so much

Abusing

My wellbeing

Mistaking

I felt I was

Breaking

But instead I was

Awakening

Into a new world

Weeping

I looked down at him

Sleeping

And knew that I was

Keeping

This new life

Angry

My heart shatters

And I lie awake

Thinking of all the things that

Led to my mistake

I can't sleep and

I can't rest

My head is filled with do many

Unwanted pests

Your words fill me

Like cold and scorn

They make me feel like

I'm old and worn

Like I deserve the

Thoughts that you

Accidentally or intentionally

Put me through

It's strange it was

My words that harmed

And now your words are

Carrying alarm

I'm finding it hard

To defend you still

As my friends all consider you

Not fitting the bill

The bill of a friend

Good, right, true

Instead you have proven that

You make me blue

I've shed tears here

Just for you

But you probably don't care

Would tell me no.

No that crying

Is just manipulation

That I would be doing it

To get compensation

Forgive me please

But this is why I'm so

Frustrated, irritated, overwhelmed

And I'm ready to blow.