30/03 Voice

Yesterday
I was not yours
Today
My heart is stolen
This time
I got lost in your eyes
That time
I was not awoken
To the sound
Of your beautiful voice

29/03 Thralls

Cry "hell" to the west
Cry "fear" to the east
Cry "horror" to the south
And "cry" to the north
Let it all fall
In revenant applause
In tears and in sorrowful lust
As we die in the thralls
Of our sin

27/03 Power Prose

I am the person behind the one who sits at the head of the table and tells you what to do because they are the freedom maker and the enemy at the same time - but I? I am the writer with the pen and ink the one of real power and real consequence demanding the time and day and making the true decisions behind the one who sits and the ones who dance rejoicing him - what? I am the faceless one you never see because I am power itself and true power is never seen. 

28/03 Essay

I can't
Write
A fucking
Essay

26/03 Consent

Want to hold me?
Then hold me.
Want to love me?
Then love me.
Want to touch me?
Then touch me.
Just ask me if I want it first
Baby
Ask me if I want it.

25/03 Coffee

Early morning
And I'm awake
Give me coffee
For heaven's sake

24/03 My Child

Watch over my child tonight
Keep her warm in your arms
Kiss her gently on the forehead
And sing her sweet lullabys

23/03 What Do You Call?

What do you call a life
That has no life in it?
Never full of peace and
Not full of joy?
Always tense and never awake
Hiding in a bed
Seeking others to stay away
The black marks come
The dark things they say
About how you just
Are fading away
But you know that feelings
Just in general have gone
There is anger and sorrow
Everything seems wrong
All the people you had as friends
Hate you so
And the man you loved
Has disappeared to the wind
The grandfather you admired
Is with the dust and worms
And the person you always
Wanted to be
Has faded away
Leaving nothing but a dry husk
Who runs on weak breaths
On self made scars
And thoughts of death
The pills you take
Could be supplemented more
Added to exponentially
And then you'd go away
To the furthest shore
And all would be simple
All would be over
And that is it, that is done
And you'd be at peace forevermore

21/03 Hold

I never want to
Be out of your arms
I never want to
Be lost from you
Keep me from going astray
Cling on to me
Like I'm your last breath

20/03 Devil

Hello my friend, are you well?
My name is Lucy, I'm from hell.

22/03 Last Lesson

Last lesson of my career
Academia in my ear
The people let out a cheer
As they filter onto the streets

Tomorrow's seminar is none
All my learning is over, done
But the battle is not won
Strive more for the future

Aching for some release
Wanting to be at peace
But demands will never cease
To be the better, best

And I will climb further more
Still going until the next shore
I succumb to study like a whore
And become its erstwhile slave

Time storms by as a tempest
Hard work becomes the accepted
All to be expected
This is my life from now on

19/03 kill

Kill the joy inside your head
Hold the boy who wants you dead
Smile at the one who raped you instead
Slaughter those who send you to bed

18/03 Fleeting Life

This train will take me far away
Far beyond the realms of my city
We power past trees that are just a blur
The ridges and leaves and dogs
The white-walled houses and the walkers
They are nothing but blinks in time
Single moments of a visual of life
That will never happen again
That we will never see again
People that I will never see again
We go on and on through life
Striding down streets on the way
To  work, recreation, hope and future
Each person's face a new vision
That barely makes an impact on the retina
It is as current and rememberable
As a fly that you saw last Thursday
Instead they are just new strangers
Of your very own city that impacts you
Only when you want it to
Every person I have probably seen before
Because this is my city and I've been here
Again and again, going to and fro
But the epitome of it all is
They are just still strangers
Still fleeting glances in the window of time
And they will not stay in mind

17/03 Hello life

Hello life
I am here
To say
Hello to you

16/03 Bed

I will stay here
Until I must
Until the stars fall from heaven
And our bodies turn to dust
I will curl up
Under my many sheets
Under my blankets aplenty
And never another soul meet
For this is my home now
This is my nest
And it will be my only home
Until I do what is best
And come out
Out to see the world
But then if I did that
My white flag I would unfurl
To surrender to the air
To give in to life
Hold onto my heart
And be out there
In the world of strife

15/03 Silence

There is no signs coming from my phone
Just the silence of the ends of the earth
A death to call my own
That I created by pressing a single button and letting it fade to nothing
Like the quiet in my heart when I see my mirro  face
The tears that drip down my face
Without sound and without want
Just dropping to the ground in a mute world
As all of it turns grey
Or never had any color anyway
For it was always quiet here in my head
And so my phone is silent as I write and take my messages
My messages to no one but
My pretend friends

14/03 Meta 5

I'm walking
Not looking where I'm going
Typing out a poem
On my phone
I'm wondering far
To the very edge
Of my reality
And people stare
Wondering if I'm chatting
But no I say
I just have rhyme and lyrics in my head
That I need to get out right now

13/03 Love Poetry

Love poetry is like
A rhythm of two hearts
A sequence of two beats
A moment of bliss
Bordered by rhyme
Love poetry is like
A dance of two notes
A song without chords
A line of statement
That shatters the silent
Love poetry is like
The breaking of bonds
The release from stress
The awakening of the heart
That beats in my breast

12/03 Life Changes

You were always there
From the day I was born
Now I am here when you need me

11/03 So much

Going mad with fear
Because I
Love you so much
Going mad with anxiety
Because I
Love you so much
Going mad with desperation
Because I
Love you so much
So much so much
I love you so much

10/03 Just

Sometimes
Things are hard
Sometimes
They are easy
Sometimes
They are peaceful
Sometimes
They are dangerous
They can be harsh
They can be hellish
They can be wondrous
And like heaven
Great people make
Great things
Harsh people make
Harsh things
But what can be made good
Can be made by either
For as long as there is no perfection
There is just

09/03 Maleficent

Rise upon angels wings
Over the moors and more
Fill your lungs with fresh summer air
And let your heart soar
Your horns are your glory
Your magic is your aid
Defend your lands majestically
The place where beauty is made
I am the protector of this place
No human king can control me
Ye wooden tree guardians
Come and defend both land and sea

08/03 Some Day

Some day I'll fly away
And leave you to be
Back some day
Our love was fated
Our love was apparently
To be
But distance kept us apart
So that we could never be
Happy

07/03 Notes for Spring (incomplete)

Eyes open on a March morning
And it is like a new year
There are sounds of
Spring is here finally
Flowers are coming into bloom
The birds return from the south
Butterflies and younglings and
Its a
New dawn of a new world
Flowing in from a frigid past
Beyond anything anyone can remember
There was snow and grey
And blustery seas
The chill of winter over your skin
Goosebumps and risings
Of bare naked trees
Scratching the sky with crooked branches
But
Now there is life anew and aplenty
The world turns once more
On an axis that it was born with
And the sun shines brighter
And the days get longer
And life gets more joyful
As the notes of spring are played

06/03 Night 2

Hold me my friend
In this cold night
I miss your touch
Your embrace
As we cuddle
As we spoon
Listening to the
Silent rhythm of the night

05/03 Night

Night and light
And sleep and dusk
And a kiss and an embrace
And a sweet lullaby
Good night dear heart
And see me true
When you awake from your slumber

04/03 Dirty

Take me home and hold me
Close
I want to be near you
Every day of my life
As you look at me
Judgementally
As I get the call of nature
The hunger and pangs
Of natural
Sexual arousal you
Stare at me as I speak
Let my lips part, tongue loosen
And admit to all
I am a dirty minded bastard

03/01 - 04/01 Modern Demands

I am sitting here in a room
Eight others surrounding, conversing
Silence falls intermittantly
To let the sound of the song bird in
Through the neatly ajar window
Held up by a whiteboard wiper
That cleans away the marks of the past
The sins of the past, mistakes
That had been made an hour before
For other classes, other conversions
Other sounds of learning and outcome
Here I sit, blinking in the bright
The bright sunlight that will never let go
Piercing, holding, onto our sight and
Making this subject of academia
All the harder, all the more impossible
As the words come in, filling our ears

One cannot adhere to everything
Cling to every phoneme
That is uttered from pink lips
For it is near perverse to require
A being to listen for two straight hours
Then study five after that
And the next day work ten after that
More and on and further and farther
Demands growing as we age
The world becoming more difficult
As the age of retirement slips on
Sixty ... Sixty-five ... Seventy
By our age it will be eighty
They say, the researchers say
Those who hunker over wooden desks
Detailing our lives with beurocracy
There is politics, and there is ethics
And they will never go hand in hand
But just call for us to keep motivated
As more percentage of us slips further
Into mental instability

So comes the future
So comes the inevitable life
As we sit here in a white room
Sun peering in through the window
On a winter day, on the wake of spring
Blossoms aching to bloom but in no way
Reflecting ourselves as we are
Exhausted beyond reason

02/03 Meta 4

The thing about poetry is
It speaks words that nothing else
Could express
It jumps
around
Mani-
Pulating sentences and
Creates emotion
In a single line
Fine, it's okay my dear
Never fear
This poetry

01/03 Someone else

Someone with me inside my head
Someone speaking those words of dread
Someone beside me in my mind
Telling me, "oh never mind, never mind.
Just leave the dead body behind."