14/02 Little Muds

When the last cry occurs
They know it's time to rest
Sun sets and light fades
And the terror-men put down
Their mighty wicked flails
They return to their great houses
To the feasting halls and beds
And all meanwhile the little muds
Go scattering to the dark

Little muds have little mind
Little soul and little intelligence
So the stories go and say
They can sow and reap and pray
But never think of life their way
For all the while the terror-men
Watch them every day

They're terror-men with terror clubs
Terrible names like 'Kill' and 'Hate'
They are feared and not wanted
By the muds who cower tight
Cower in their little hovels
Come out when it is day
And then they are whipped
And they are worked hard
All day, every day, all the day

Winged Termite

She's such a little one
Barely bigger than a penny
So dainty and so vulnerable
With wings like gossamer
A body almost clear
Six little legs tumbling
She's got a mission on her mind
One of a million
Millions of trillions
She flies with her kin
Bringing a mist to the skies
As thousands of wing pairs hum
A chordant tune of choice
She takes to the skies, free
With one thing on her mind
As those around her are eaten
Mercilessly devoured in gulps
She leaves the tower safe
She flies on and on
Past the wildfire and the storm
Past the winged finch and the eater
Past the bug and the swishing tail
The grubs that she eats
And the grubs that eat her
Those that lie in wait
And those that don't
That are victims of opportunity
Past them she thrives
As all her kin dies
And she flies on, flies on
Past dangers worse
And problems harder
To make finally a rest
A small nest, and next
She gives birth
To millions and trillions
To thousands of her new kin
All another generation
To build another tower
Of clear bodies and tiny jaws
All hail to the new queen

Alternative Arthur

Once upon a time
In a land far away
There was a little shepherd boy
With the greatest part to play
He was a king without a kingdom
A man without the growth
He had a purpose to live to
"Ane perrfekt legende trowthe"
He knew the word Excalibur
And he knew the name of the Mage
But just how to get two together
Would prove to be strange
For there was a big old tree
And there was a mighty half bro
Whose name was Kay, it be said
And he fretted to and fro
Oh yes he forgot his sword
At the tourney to make a king
And his little kin found another
Beside the tree that could sing
Sing of old my friend, my dear
Sing of things never sung
With a voice of ages old
Of a man who was never young
And there was a sword there
Lodged tight in a boulder
Little boy lifted it out
Hefted it onto his shoulder
And then the song broke
It died in gorgeous g sharp
And the spell of the tree broke
Snapping like the string of a harp
Out from the tree the Mage stepped
He blinked and cocked his head
He looked at the boy,
Proclaimed him the king
And history became not future
But history instead.

Random line

And I think wow
Okay
I can put them altogether in a certain type of way.

Secret Other People

This is just a conversation between you and me
I talk to people that other's cannot see
I know I am mad, and I know they're in my head
But sometimes it's easier to talk to them instead.
Instead of real people, instead of life,
Instead of those who wouldn't understand my strife
Because these people inside, they're made of me,
And that is why its so incredibly easy
To forget everything that is real and true
To instead concentrate on what makes me blue
For blue is the colour of my mind and soul
Blue is the colour that makes me whole
Its not the colour of the sky overhead,
In Scotland the sky is grey instead,
Grey clouds and grey rain and grey mist,
Hidding the white sun that is always missed.
Missed by everyone except me and my friends,
We'll banter always until the very end
Just because I have a rabbit to talk to
Doesn't mean I have other friends - they're just not you
Instead they are folk who are pieces of me
And that is why I can forget them so easily

Human condition

The first child screams as the first death
Blood gargles back in her last breath
Back into her throat to choke as she does
All in the sight of the father who dies
As the mother cannot cope, grasps the knife
Stressed by fear and stressed by strife
She kills the children, left right and one two
In front of he who keeps saying, "I love you."
She turns to him the very last of all
And nothing is left but the final to fall
She pauses in the glint of new morn
Her knife reflecting first light of dawn
And he repeats, "I love you. I love you."
And she replies, she stabs, "I do too."

Running

They tried to take me
But I ran before they could
The doors swung open
The ropes unbound
And so I ran

My feet whispered
On the dry red ground
I passed by grasses
And people
Without sound

Those people who had me
Had been caught
By unawares
And the new ones who wanted
Freed me instead

Past them I ran
Fleeing that prison
Flowers blooming all over
As I ran
As I ran

I passed houses and fields
Mountains and stream
Flocks of sheep and horses
Resting birds, waking cows
Passing as if a dream

I was fleeting and I was fast
Fast as I ran
Ran to where my feet took me
Miles and miles and miles

Eventually I got to
The place that I wanted
There was a small house
And a small stream
Forwards I ran
Ran through the door
To cry "I'm home."

Voice in my head

There's a voice in my head
And not a little voice like some have
It's a powerful voice
A bellow or a boom
That shouts and roars and screams
Shaking the earth and
Shattering dreams
It utters profanities
And whispers murderous lies
Deathly and terrible
Full of nothing but malice
Death death it cries,
Hate hate it yells,
Crying to the four winds
To the seven seas
To the seven continents
Hissing at all that is and was
All the horrors that makes up humanity
All the terror that makes us
Terrorists
Spreading hues of darkness
Spreading scents of filth
Hatred and sorrow and
All sorts of hell

I have a voice in my head
But it's not a little voice
It cries tears
Real tears of many years
And it yells
Inside my head
Internal and never seen
Kicking and hissing and
I don't want, I don't know
Never seen and never heard
Because outside
I'm smiling

Snow Dream

I dream of snow drops
All laden with snow
I dream of a woman
All laden with tears
I dream of a father
Coming round the hill
With his horse trampling the frost
Sword held high
Crying "nay, nay, nay!"
As the fields are whitening
Filling with the cold of snow
And the ravens are cawing
Scrabbling at bitter air
As the dew turns to ice
In the chill of winter morning
The father is coming
Around the hill, crying
"Nay, nay, nay!"
Trying to battle back winter
With his naked blade.

The Necromancer And The End Of The World

This is the dying of the light
This is when all things turn to night
This is a peace that shall be kept
For the dead man cannot object.
There will be a great cry over all
And the last great wonder shall fall
The last great man will wonder
As the world is torn asunder.
He will stand on a green grass hill
Nothing according to his will
But he will ponder the life eternal
As all becomes nocturnal.
The dead will rise and the live will die
They will turn to dust with a sigh
And all the necromancer can do
Is see it all right through
For though he is the man of death
He is still, nevertheless, of health
He is of life and breath and blood
And not of ash, but of mud
A mud that was made eons ago
In a volanic pit moving slow
A soup of biology and fleshy cells
That were born in the mouth to hell.
So this time that is to come to pass
Will come at the era of the second last
And when the last second ticks by
All the living will surely die.
Excepting he who lives beyond
Who lives with death, in death's song
But he will not be able to control his fate
Instead it will be forever too late.
Instead the necromancer will be alone
Not able to die, but still of flesh and bone
Thus he will be of two worlds, and none
Like passion caught between moon and sun.
He will worship the night and the day
Nothing good coming his way
The death will avoid him, and so alone
He will live out eternity, on his own.

Not God

Somethings I don't know
But then
What would it be to know everything?
To know all that there is
To hold the verses in the palm of your hand
Those that were
Those that are
How would it be to
Know all and not be able to learn?
To not go to school and be taught
And not fill your mind with new wonders?
For how can you wonder
When things are not new
When you
Already know what the sunset is going to be like tonight
When you
Already can see what the quantum atom is
How can you
Be able to flow and change
With the ebb of times
When all you are is static
For you know all
You see all
And all there is
Is your omniscience
Mate
You're not fucking God.

Someone

There's above and below
There's inside and out
There's a heart and a centre
There's a mantle and a crust
There's a song crying out for you
There's a father's tears dripping
There's a love
There's a chance
There's someone waiting
Waiting just for you

Love

Your eyes are like the winter storm
Ever watchful, never worn
You're the one to whom my heart is sworn
I have loved you
Ever since I was born

Sniff Sniff Thump

Fourth most popular pet in the UK
I'd say it's going okay.
Well apart from the mass of abandoned
It's alright
We'll get each of you a home
Safe and right
People will learn of the love you can give
They'll realise you're worth every year you live
12 years in the pot, and maybe more
For each one of you
I'm very sure
They'll be a home somewhere
Safe, sound and all that
And one day they'll be laws to protect you
As though as those for the cat
Or those for the dog
What is it they say
"A dog ain't just for Christmas..."
Well neither is a bunny, no way
They're here for life
All well and good
To be loved like they should
Like they deserve right from the start
For a rabbit is a friend from the very heart

Nonense

It's not just a moon
They say
They say that it's a supermoon
It's super strong
And super vivid
Not much bigger
But it's brightness is beyond anything
Anyone has seen
It's a super duper supermoon
Forever too big
To fit in my biggest spoon
Soup or tea or dessert
And despite the fact
I love my food and I love soup
I can't quite stop
Looking at this moon
Big giant supermoon
Brighter than anything
Not coming back soon

Mantle song

Let's all dance to the beat of the earth
Put your ear to the ground
And hear it's pulse
As your filled with the sound
It's a boom boom in the mantle
A thunder in the crust
Pick up your feet and dance
To the song of trust

Listen to her rhythm you dears
See the beasts pronking high
Deer raise their antlers heavenly
And roar to the sky
They bellow out sounds loud
And sounds quiet as mice
It's good to be here
It's good to be nice

Hold the earth tight in your arms
Feel her stone embrace
As she bestows vegetation upon us
Giving us some grace

It's a boom boom in the mantle
A thunder in the crust
Pick up your feet and dance
To this song of trust

Emotions When Depressed

There are these times
That won't let go
They grab me by the throat
And won't let go
It's all
Snatch snatch snatch
And catch catch catch
I can't get free
Won't ever get the chance
You see it's a disease, of sorts
An illness, the doctor's say
It's an emptiness of emotions
Not just "sadness" as some think
It's not feeling down
(Though that's often the word)
Its more a void
An emptiness
No matter how absurd
It sounds it's true
It's something in your head
Something in your bones
And you can't get rid of it
It'll come back
Again and again and again

Five

For the fifth time the bell tolled
Swinging on its axis in the tower
The clapper in the sound bow
Hitting each side in a rhythm of tone
Back and fourth it swung again
The noise it made a cacophony
Made of brass and sparkling bold
It yelled the hour to the four winds
Five it is, five and no more, no more,
Five it is and no more.

I Imprisoned Me

All the emotion in the world
Entombs me right now
They have caught me in a fashion
In a prison of worry and fear
I have shackles of anxiety
Fetters of intense shame
Around my neck is padlocked sorrow
And chains of stress link them all
I'm in this cell where you see me now
Made of tears and sweat and blood
Only a barred window murmurs freedom
But it's too far and too beyond
My chains don't stretch that far
Too be able to see out of it
Though there is a dim light, sunlight
There is a ray of hope there
And its name is belief in myself

Cat and dog

Laugh at me
Said the cat to the dog
Laugh at me
And tell me why I'm fat
Said the dog to the cat
What on earth?
Shut up you idiot
And eat your food before I do.

Rite of Passage

I'm not the woman you used to know
I don't take shit from the status quo
I bend time and space in my hand
I'm changing with the world as I stand
Maybe you knew me when I was young
When demons hid and angels sung
But now I've seen things harsh and true
I'm no longer one you can see right through
You see now I've been through some life
And I've been through my stretches of strife
I've seen dead men walking to and fro
Not worrying about where they're to go
They're dark souls and they've dark minds
Yet I know how to read all the signs
I see they're thoughts in their faces
They might be from all different places
But I've learnt to know as I grow
Leaving footprints, leaving seeds to sow
To me they're still of the same ilk, same crop
And I know them all, down to every drop
Of their blood.

Wanted

I'm going away tomorrow
You might not see me before
Before I leave, before I go
Before I sail away towards
A silvery moon
Will you wake me up tomorrow?
With a telephone call
I know maybe I won't see you
Before I sail away
But will you wake me
When you rise?

Actually ... Yes

There is a single time
A single word
That changes lives
In a second
You took me to a garden
Showed me lilac flowers
We took photos
And we smiled
Under the early summer sun
And there was a path
A route you chose
With the lilac flowers
Hanging like bells on the green bush
I stopped and looked
Distracted by their beauty
Then you turned
And gave me a sheep
A single fluffy sheep
Like Gabriel Oak to Bathsheba
(All proceeds to Thomas Hardy)
I was lost for a moment
After all it was a fluffy sheep
The plushest to-die-for kind
And then you said,
"Actually ..."
Actually there was something else
That you wanted to ask
And then I turned around
And there you were kneeling
Actually kneeling
With the ring sparkling in the sunlight
Oh yes there was a single time
And there was a single word
One word that uttered from my lips
As I hugged that sheep
And my eyes
Widened in shock and adoration
Which was only ever one thing
Only ever going to be
One thing
Indeed
"Are you serious?"
-I mean, it was,
It was "yes."

Friend, Are You Here Again?

I see you there
You are in my world
Standing at the edge of the void
A very long time ago
We said goodbye
A few times, maybe more,
Always more, saying
"Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye."
But now you are back again.

I see you there
Standing at the crossroads
Between my reality
And imagination
Life is short and life is sweet
One day we said goodbye
Yes that is what we said,
"Goodbye. Goodbye. Goodbye."
But now you are back here
And I don't know why.

I see you there
And I am curious
I feel no hard heartedness, no pain
Only memory as I smile
And you do not look back
Oh I say hello to the wind
More times, saying,
"Hello. Hello. Hello."
But your presence is fleeting.
Again you are gone to the wind. 

Back To

Bring me back to a time where
you and I had simple lives
had simple thoughts and
simple dreams
and
simple hopes and all was as it seems
I just want to go back
to the times of plenty
where horses roamed free
and the grass wasn't pricky
it was
fresh and green and smelt so sweet
lush and long that
was a carpet for your feet
all day long
and you
didn't need socks or shoes
all you needed was a song
you could
run around
in the fields all day
and never worry about the kids
never worry if they strayed
because
its a time where all is simple
they'll always come home
I want to go back
to a time we could be on our own.

Lesbian Antics

Let me say this straight and true
There's nothing going on with me and you
When you stretch your arm to put it behind
I do get bothered, I do actually mind
You see life is life and death is death
And love is love, and all the rest
So maybe I might have maybe encouraged you
I want you to know that I never meant to
You see there's a hole in my heart
But its already filled with a certain art
With crimes of passion and fits of lust
A bit of lacey lingerie, a hint of bust
That gets my ... well, hormones in a twist
I awakened, aroused ... you get the gist
There's already someone dear, so go away
I don't need you to think of me that way

Faded

As I sink into the wall
My eyes gaze at you
I'm fading into the dull light
And you cannot see me
For I am gone
All gone
Faded so away
I'm your typical wallflower
Quiet and repressed
Silent and so invisible
Watching in the eaves
As the world acts on around me
Sweet silence
I'm watching you with love

Moon

Thin crescent moon
How can you
Smile so squint
Its like
Being on your side
Bobbing your head
Doing the splits
Along a roof corner
You have no eyes
You just grin and stare
With no teeth
But crooked patches
Where your seas should be
Oh
Thin crescent moon
In the night
And in the day
You look like
Nothing I've ever wanted
Apart from a banana

Bobbing

Your little bobbing head
With your little bobbing hormones
Bobbing through your body
You have no bobbing control
You're a little bobbing boy
Chasing a little bobbing girl
Bobbing both in time
To this little bobbing world
Your a tiny bobbing creature
With feathery bobbing wings
You're bobbing a-wanting her
But she doesn't bobbing care
Its an unfair bobbing world
To leave a bobbing boy behind
The girl has no bobbing want
To your bobbing flirtations
But you keep bobbing after her
Instinct bobbing you along
Keep going bobbing, I say
I praise your bobbing
And wish you the bobbing best
So bob along, little pigeon
You'll bob over the rest

Ragged Heart

I have a ragged heart
Would you like to see it?
Its right here in my chest
Would you like to feel it?
Take this scalpel I have here in my hand
Mark my breast with a bloody 'v'
Yes just like those ones you see
On the TV or in a movie.
You'll cut my flesh but I won't mind
I'll smile as you cut deep inside
And in their you'll see my ragged heart
Beating loud, holes wide apart
With veins so thin you could thread them
Skin so thin you could see right through it
Beat so strained you could race and win
A heart so ragged you could patch it.
I don't mind if you cut my chest
My ragged heart is quite the best
Would you like my heart in your hand?
Don't be shy now, go and demand!

Loss (Or Loss Is Not The End, My Friend, Loss Is Not The End)

Today the world awakens
Without another in its shadow
The sun rises in its orbit
Looking down with gentle rays
At the billions scattered beneath it.

But today is not the same day,
Today is a day without one 

It is a sad day, a dull day, a mournful day
But a joyous day
Of a life well lived and well loved
Of sons and wives and warm hearts
Of kisses and " I love yous" and

Of relief; for
The suffering, it has passed
The water flows ever on
Rivers of big blue and wet
Turbines still turn and people still walk
Wheels still work and eyes still blink
There is sorrow but there is relief
There are tears, but there are smiles
And there is loss, but there is love.
Is love, always be my love.
Fathers and grandfathers pass on by
But we remain their children eternal
So shine pretty sun
And flow pretty river
And world keep turning

As we smile

One 

More 

Time.

Gentle sun

The sun rises
Finally
Taking the opportunity
Of everyone's joy
He's smiling over us
Thinking
Ah, at last
I have a chance to stretch my arms
I'm out now
So dance people
My hibernation is over
Although
People
They so smile up at him
And think
Wow its hotter
Its better
More beautiful
But they still shiver
With scarves and hats
Adorning neck and brow
A little cold
For
Temperature
Ah sun
So happy that the clouds are gone
So happy the snow
That turned to ice
Is melting
So happy to see your face
After so long
But its
Not quite spring yet
Gentle one
Its not quite spring yet

The Rape, They Call It

Single and small
The seeds popped into her mouth
One by one by one
The purple flesh around them
With such a thin skin
It took just a touch
Of canines
To pierce it and release
The fresh sweet juice
Of a life so eternal

The taste was pure
And her desire was avid
She was a young girl
Barely fourteen
And full of absolute
Lust
For the fruit
Because she would never
Obey what her mother said
Like no child
In these stories ever does

So she ate and devoured
Seven seeds
Of the pomegranate
And a voice around her
Echoed in the halls around her
Roared in the halls around her
Causing the flames to dance

"You did it, you did
You ate it pure
You did it, you did
That which they told you not to."

She gasped
And she gulped,
Surprised at first
And the seventh seed fell
From her mouth
Leaving her only six to swallow
She
Bit her lip
Looking guilty or
Looking afraid
There were too many emotions to show
Her hands rolled tight
She smothered a grin
And looked around
Cheeky
Cheeky
Child

"You can't keep me,
Monster thine,
I am Demeter's daughter,
And you are a wretch."

The voice around her
As swift as darkness
Resounded
Amused,
It laughed

"Mummy's girl
They said you were a mummy's girl
So beautiful
But you're not a mummy's girl
Are you?
You're a wretch yourself
Aren't you?"

There came a pause
A pause indeed
And silence as the girl
Played
With greed
The voice listened
The master of hell listened
Waiting patiently
Oh so patiently
The ultimate kidnapper
Who had guessed perfectly right.

"She told me not to eat,
So I did
Six seeds for six months
That is the deal."

She winked at the fire
At the flames so high
The scorch marks
Brushed the ceiling
High
Up high

"You are more clever
Than I expected, dear oh my dear
Fourteen years old
Deep in puberty
Rebel in soul."

Persephone laughed
Then Persephone giggled
She removed her dress
And the hairpins too
Sexily
She placed a hand on her hip
Thrust out her abdomen
She winked
To Hades
His guess having worked
Her adolescent nature
Having been persuaded
Freedom
At last
From constraining
Controlling
Irritating Demeter
Her mother Demeter
Over protective
Demeter

"Come and get me tiger,"
She roared
Winked again
Once more,
"Just never tell mother
This was deliberate."

"Don't worry,"
He said
Stepping from the void,
"I'd never tell my brother
Your father
You're true feelings
If I am yours."

You told me

Didn't you say you wanted to cry?

Didn't you say you wanted to sigh?

Didn't you say you wanted
To back away
And be alone, all alone
Away and,
All alone?

Well I,
All I did was I,
I -
I made it easier.
I made it happen.

You ask me why.
Why, why, why?
I tell you why
And you cry.

You break down in tears and
Tell me not to go
Beg to me on the phone
As I
Sit in my
Single room flat
With a single bed and only
A rabbit for company.

But I
Have already gone from
Your future because you
Told me you wanted to say goodbye

You told me you wanted to cry

You told me, you told me, you wanted to sigh.

You told me you wanted to be alone,
All alone,
You wanted to back away,
And be gone from here
All day, all night.

So why - why
Do you beg me now to come back?