23/03 What Do You Call?

What do you call a life
That has no life in it?
Never full of peace and
Not full of joy?
Always tense and never awake
Hiding in a bed
Seeking others to stay away
The black marks come
The dark things they say
About how you just
Are fading away
But you know that feelings
Just in general have gone
There is anger and sorrow
Everything seems wrong
All the people you had as friends
Hate you so
And the man you loved
Has disappeared to the wind
The grandfather you admired
Is with the dust and worms
And the person you always
Wanted to be
Has faded away
Leaving nothing but a dry husk
Who runs on weak breaths
On self made scars
And thoughts of death
The pills you take
Could be supplemented more
Added to exponentially
And then you'd go away
To the furthest shore
And all would be simple
All would be over
And that is it, that is done
And you'd be at peace forevermore